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(no subject) [Sep. 23rd, 2006|09:08 am]
 I work only 2 days a week
its not making me happy
and i do get paid very well my checks r pro more then any of yours are
but im unhappy
355 was my last check but i just wanna find a weekday job.
called into work today cause i have practice fjhdfjdf

anyone hireing?
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2006|03:45 pm]
Fuck our schools parking shit.

1st day back to school - I get into a car accident
I was soo scared
stuie ran into me and then serouisely my SUV drove over her car
no damages to my car not even a paint scratch nothing at all 
her car totalled.
im soo upset we could have died.
if i wasnt in a SUV then we would be in a much wrose place.
welcome back.
It was crazy 
its all cause of the new school parking shit.
anyways no tickets.
nothing really effects me
and in the police report its her flaut
none the less I apologize
no one got hurt i chipped my tooth and have a horrible headache
and amanda hurt her arm
stuie doesnt have a car
but shes okay

sad day
wonder how my last day will be.
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(no subject) [Aug. 26th, 2006|11:54 am]
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summer =) [Aug. 20th, 2006|06:13 pm]
to simply put my summer into a few little words would be almost impossible, i went on a road trip with my ladies the vaginas , got into lil petty fights, had drama with the boys , asses got kicked , people got drunk, drugs got stolen, and realtionships started as soon as others were ending. I believe this is a mark of how crazy my school year will be , I spent much of my summer with kirstin whom i love and colin whom at the end of the day i still love, the thing about kirstin is she makes me feel like i am a really amazing person like i do deserve everything i want and the thing about colin is i adored him and i know at the end of the day he will always want me to be with him , sadly he doesnt know what hes missing out on or mb he does seeing as he asked me back out and broke up with me the next day . but mb its to teach me a lesson and now ...only 5 days after that happened. i met neil hes a pretty cool guy and im just seeing how everything works out sadly rob thinks im a dirty cunt bc im not interested in him none the less , to rap up the summer would be nearly impossible.
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Its looking up =) [Aug. 3rd, 2006|06:13 pm]
[this is me --> |cheerfulcheerful]

Tawas is saturday!!!
Road trip with my ladies.
erich and colin r coming too.
ill be gone 2 weeks so you will miss me.
I got a new car also
check it out a 98 explorer ...red 
but ill be paying it off for the rest of my life.
so im broke.
but hey its super super sexy.
fits me perfect
and colins been calling me a lot.
I never once called him.
lets see whats up.
and Josh is okay,
and everyones okay now.
Mike flynn broke my heart when he apologized to erich.
did i mention i went swimming at like 3 am.
and rob is my boo
o o  o  o o o o Im soo busy tommor.
dinner in south lyon
saying my good byes.
picking up my check.
and paying my dad.
im pretty much a gangster lately
may god bless you david
and your family.

Yeah to life right now.
yeah to being single.
Yeah to Tawas
Yeah to my new car

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stop the voilence [Jul. 29th, 2006|10:28 am]
[this is me --> |scaredscared]

 I cry at the sound of my phone ringing
its never ever good news
all The news i have got lately are news like 
"hey they beat the shit out of him"
"hey hes in jail"
" they fallowed me in my car"
" I dont wanna be with you ...Ever ever in life, but hey i love you"

or the wrost one yet 
"hes dead"

May god bless you David smith
I grew up with you from elementry  up until  now
I  cant believe this happpened
i love you.

 Nobody I know has ever died.
and in such a harsh way
putting a quarter on the rail road tracks
ive done that before

wats next
this violence needs to stop.

stay safe.

-going to see erich his arrigment is today =(
- cheerleading thing until 6
- pro stoping by david house

I dont understand why god would throw all this at me at once.

im scared, for me , for co co , for the boys , when i hear the ice maker go off i flip out, or when my cat jumps on a table, all i think is its someone to kill me
am i next to die?
we all need to learn our lessons
dont hold back
think things through
let the small things go
dont get even
keep  the people you love close
and always say how you feel
dont be materialistic
and understand life isnt promised.....

I love absoultly everyone whos reading this...
I adore you.
I admire you.
and I want you to know.

May god bless David

May god bless his family

Many god bless us .
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2006|07:26 pm]
[this is me --> |scaredscared]

Screw My boyfriend drama
all I know is im here for him
I love you colin.

Im worried 
about everyone.
please stay safe........

Im really scared people are going to get hurt
im on no sides im just worried.
I love you guys
if thats the last thing you hear from me 

Stay safe.

why are you guys soo isane sometimes. and the cops suck. and if anyone hears from co co tell him to call me.

bye boo's
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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2006|08:36 am]
[this is me --> |frustratedfrustrated]

When it rains it pours
well its pouring on me

lets start this week off
- boyfriend who I love breaks up with me cause he doesnt want a gf
-get pulled over 2 nights in a row
-have to go to the police station and all to show my headlights fixed
-My mom goes phyco and says I have to pay her car insurance and all that or shes kicking me out so no new car =(
-she screams at me all night until its time for me to get up for work
- had to  leave matts going away party early
-and to top it off colin could care less

I guess the ones who deserve good things dont get them.

am i the only one with a curfew?
I have to be home at 12 with the car and 1 without it.
good thing my mom didnt ruin my summer right.

and good thing the only people i have in my life r my friends.
I think this entire situation is extreamly unfair
I do not understand why God does things like this.
all I want is co co back
and no curfew
and my mom not to be phyco 
and a new car
then Kaitlan will be happy cause those would make my year =)
cheers to being a senior.

 I wish someone ... co co would care the least bit hes entirely to selfish , he doesnt want a gf but why not we never ever fought and had a ton of space and I did everything  every single thing right only to get the wrong things back , if someone makes you happy and you love them there should be no reason at all you let them leave your life. ...... I adore him. a lot. he said he still is in love with me . im soo pissed.
its wack.
this is  wack.
I can not wait until I leave in 10 days for Tawas

I didnt do a damn thing to deserve this.+

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(no subject) [Jul. 23rd, 2006|05:59 pm]
[this is me --> |contentcontent]

SO update
colin , co co , cokes whatever dumped me
once again im single.
he didnt want to be tied down
it serouisly came out of nowhere
we never fought
and 2 mins b4 he dumped me he was snuggleing with me
but im not upset or mopey
im okay with it 
his loss cause im sure a ton of people would love to be with me 
and love to be tied down to me 
and love me.
so whatever
thats my update im bout to go out with the ladies so call the cell bye bye
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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2006|08:21 am]

My summers been a lot of work and no sleep b.c theres also a lot of play
Im hoping by the mid of AUgust I will be able to get a new car
it sucks cause i have no idea where my money goes.
it sucks
anyone selling a car btw??
or know someone who is for cheapish.
cause if you dont know im broke.
anyways right now i have 300 in my bank
next friday add 400 to that
then another 400

so anyone wanna help me find a car around that price.
i hope it works out that way =(
im just not going to cash my checks so i'll be loaded.
im semi despressed
anyways i have been running on NO sleep
and missing out on hanging with shane sean and terry
god it sucks
but its hard to make time for sleep let alone people i adore.
its work from 11-6 then shower /eating and nap until 9 then my phone starts ringing then out to like 2 am and repeat it over and over and over again
i gtg get ready for work * insert blah face*
but what rocks is we pick employee of the month today
and we all go out on friday 
and the zoo pays
also i have been going some day from work to practice to party's and re do.
tommor thats the plan.
help me out with the car btw yall

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(no subject) [Jun. 21st, 2006|11:38 am]
my summer has been eventful
and i love having the best friends ever
the vaginas r amazing
i love them
I can not even explain everything we did this summer
we swam in a fountian
went to bon fires
went to court
worked for sure.
anyways its been great
im sad i work thur , fri , sun
well thats not bad
call me boo's
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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2006|12:50 pm]
so update
its summer and were now seniors
07 bitch
anyways my week couldnt be any more isane
no my life.
anyways colin one day didnt want to date me anymore
then the next hes living with me
trust me hes not staying long
him and greg r getting a apt
i have been chillin with my virginas a lot
there great
and works gay
thats my life.
bye bitches/.
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2006|07:31 pm]
I guess im okay considering everything is a mess
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(no subject) [May. 29th, 2006|09:03 am]
[this is me --> |confusedconfused]

So what did I do to deserve to feel soo badly

lets recap this week
colin crashs my car
my grandpa goes into the hospital
I wake up to take colin to breakfast I pay and he doesnt care
I think its gay that we didnt make room for kirstin in our senior scavenger hunt so I go and get my car
I buy mark a pop when I know he wouldnt do the same for me
I buy erich and colin dinner pizza and breadsticks from primos or someshit

but then People go around and tell me even though I dont do shit for myself  i',m
Im always in a bad mood.
im Annoying <- by far the wrost.
you guys can only imagine who said this to me...then he wouldnt let me like hug him he pushed me away
hell no =(
its sad people can make you feel so bad
he basically Pointed out all my bad qualities
I guess i suck...

It sucks to realize nobody truely loves you for you anymore.
it sucks when your sad to have someone tell you 437398758 reasons why your wrong
it sucks to get yelled at 
I hope you guys can understand where im coming from

nobody wants to hear they basically suck .

I wish I felt like i did .. I feel like Im not selfish Not one bit
I am not always in a bad mood
im so pissed.

its cool............I;m used to hearing all these things.
I want him to read this without telling me why im wrong.
he told me " well i hung out with you all week"
like that counts. 
or get you out of trouble.
and your going to act like im crazy.
its sad.

I thought you loved me.
you dont treat people you love like this.

someone tell him to read this.

I still love everyone.
its cool if you guys feel like him

and by him I mean colin.
thank god for Livejournal sometimes
I can vent.
and vent
and vent
its karama I have bad luck 

I love you guys

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sadness.......so sad.....=( [May. 22nd, 2006|08:35 pm]
[this is me --> |sadsad]

well as Many of you heard colin crashed my car.
I didnt tell my parents that though
I couldnt b/c I would get grounded.
im semi gerounded they are more or less upset that someone did this to my car.
It was a " hit and run" as far as they know
but to say the least im pissed.
mad and upset
him and erich were only driving i sware to god a few miles from the pool hall to mellsia mullens house
 I feel bad
and I have no idea where me and colin stand as of now.
weather or not we r together
what sucks is i can not even look at him without wanting to beat the shit out of him.
its isane.
anyways hes paying for whatever weather it be to fix it or a new car.
not sure
im sad............
I love the car <3
so as of now rare driving.
mb a new car asap
and btw I am still a cheerleader heard some rumors.
also I know everyone is talking bout my whole car inncodent
its cool bad things always happen to me
I dont deserve it
but whatever,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I guess god thinks so
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(no subject) [May. 12th, 2006|11:03 pm]
[this is me --> |confusedconfused]

Canoeing was a blast
it was by far the coldest i have ever been!
god damn
me and amanda ran into at least 69657658 trees
and im all cut up and bruised
not to say namonie and shit
I went crazy on the canoe
god damn
but to say the least it was by far a trip I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET
tell me why 1/2 the kids didnt even take wilderness or even go to our school.
but whatever
we had to stop our canoe ride bc it was raining and windy and we were cold so we sat ina  room for about 3 hours
but that gave us some bonding time
I <3 it!!!
anyways on another note im tired.
as hell.

and mad at someone
you can suck a dick ......
this is a totally differnet story
but im upset as hell
you Hoed me serouisely
so You know what fuck yourself.
I offically like hate you now.
and YOu know who you are.
weather or not you read this its ventalaztion
 " Its okay it not a big deal"
neaither are you..
-my lil rant-

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(no subject) [May. 9th, 2006|07:06 am]
[this is me --> |coldcold]

OK NEW updated
Insted of prom we went out to dinner all dressed up
and everyone remembers my shirt
Monday- went to play tennis with the boys
tues- practice then to do some shit for colin then out to play frisbi golf I think I spelt that all wrong
and today I gotta call my doctor then switch my medication then who knows
I llove shane
we sat and listened to music outside ambers work for like a hour
good times
Im glad were friends
seniors only have like 14 days left also
Im excited Im going to miss them but they r not going far and everyone comes back to ferndale
anyways to school I go
i hate it lately
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(no subject) [Apr. 26th, 2006|11:09 pm]
[this is me --> |blankblank]

So lately its like everyone is really short with me
and nobody thinks about how rude they are to me
they only think about how rude I am to them
and im sorry
also I miss hanging out the boys at times
I miss erich
and terry
and shane
even if they dont miss me.
im sort of upset people know things upset and they point them out
its kind of depressing
and so is this entry
but I take things to heart and Its sad
its been a crazy ass week
I just want shit to get back to god damn normal asap
I need it to
I miss shit also .
you can tell im upset right lol
anyways call me to hang out sometimes yall
bye boo
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(no subject) [Apr. 21st, 2006|04:15 pm]
Spent my entire break out
work almost every morning 9-5 then out the entire night
had a few run ins with the cops?
they suck , so were all at the park and they roll up and give everyone tickets for being out past cerfew and noise and shit luckly he didnt give me one who knows why?
and then Im driving ambers car get pulled over btw it was my 1st time being pulled over , her registration is 5 years old we have a ton of 40's in the back , kirstin is drunk and smokeing , and its not my car and like 12 oclock
once again nothing but a warning
so my mom also wants to move to shitty blah blah hazel park
see if im ever home.
omg mike flynns car is amazing a mercadies
o wow
and eric basnia i never saw your goodies
o we had 2 sleepovers at ambers with the boys n junk
and I got really sick
and not looking forward to working in the heat tommor at the zoo the only postivie thing is im seeing rafe
nasium and noor and brian i also saw a bunch on my break!
im pretty sun burned right now also.
Its been a prettty sexy break.
sucks I havent even started Mr hunters project ouch...someone help me
My 1st check is 412 with taxes!!
Im super excited
my braces come off on tuesday if they look all sexy
how excited am I ?!
and we stole a hamster at like 4 am from mijers
real gangsters do that
and why do people get drunk at 10 am at matts house?
I dono
and omg erich had a chaser and i contunied to fill it with more alcohol
I can not stand alcohol at all.........
it grosss me out
anyways Im not excited for school on monday
well see whats up.
<3 ya
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thought it was funny [Apr. 16th, 2006|07:06 pm]

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Colin!

  1. Colin has a bifurcated penis.
  2. The smelly fluid secreted by skunks is colloquially known as Colin!
  3. Colin was first discovered by Alexander the Great in India, and introduced to Europe on his return.
  4. If you chew gum while peeling Colin then it will stop you from crying.
  5. Colin was declared extinct in 1902.
  6. Twenty-eight percent of Microsoft's employees are Colin!
  7. Scientists have discovered that Colin can smell the presence of autism in children!
  8. If you kiss Colin for one minute you will burn six or seven calories.
  9. Fish travel in schools, but whales travel in Colin!
  10. The moon is 400 times closer to the Earth than Colin, and 400 times smaller.
I am interested in - do tell me about
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